He was a fucking rock star.

I'm not over it, but I'm doing ok.  Way better than I thought I'd be.

A week with family was much needed.

A week out of the city was much needed haha.

Not much else to say at the moment.

I need to write all my memories of this week down before I forget.

<3

none of this makes any sense...

if it was what i think it was,

the last time it happened,

i was there to save him.

but i'm leaving it as an accident.

i'm never accepting that it could have been anything else.

constantly frazzled, he grabbed the wrong thing.

end of story.

i'm not beating myself up over it,

there was nothing i could have done.

but it was just 24 hours till i was going to see him again.

this is not fucking real life.

i thought i was supposed to be the famous one, huh?

now you're all over the news haha.

i still owe you a flight to norway!

left my life as fast as you came into it, but changed me more than you'll ever know.

i love you forever and ever.

Wrecking Ball

Night 1, 9/30/09

- Debuted "Wrecking Ball," saw Cindy, performed Born to Run in its entirety.

Night 2, 10/2/09

- Jeremy Piven was there, performed Darkness on the Edge of Town in its entirety, Bruce spotted me while leaving the stage and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

Night 3, 10/3/09

- Took a nap and did math homework instead of going :(

Bruce crowd surfed during "Hungry Heart" and Cindy wore a shirt I made her on stage!

Night 4, 10/8/09

- Performed Born to Run again, Chris Martin, Ed Burns, and Christy Turlington were there.

Night 5, 10/9/09

- Performed Born in the USA, Matt Damon, Tom Colicchio, Chris Martin, and Ed Burns were there.  Bruce came over and we chatted after he finished soundcheck, still callin' me Cuz haha, and he also managed to spot me in the crowd during the show.

Next, Philly, NYC, and Baltimore.  Then... it's.... over... :(

Is there anybody alive out there?

I am not at night 3 of 5 at Giants Stadium for Bruce Springsteen & the E Street Band right now.

I had math homework to do.

Cool.

Night 2 was my favorite so far.

We'll see what the remainder of the tour brings.

I hate letting other people ruin things for me.

Bruce made me come say hi and kissed me on the cheek after coming off stage the other night.

Cool.

Hopefully once I get this art project out of the way, I'll feel better about everything and have the greatest two weeks going back "on tour."

Tonight, the Yeah Yeah Yeahs play Radio City Music Hall!

I will not be there, but it should be the greatest show they've ever played haha.

PS: GO LOOK AT

THESE http://blog.urbanoutfitters.com/features/wtwta_christian_joy

so much fun to make!!

Next Tuesday though, I will be at Music Hall of Williamsburg! YAY!

Next Wednesday is night #1 of my 2nd leg of the Working on a Dream tour with Bruce lol.

Studs for my stud machine should finally be arriving any day now! Future projects are building up in my head so bad.

and here is my Christmas list...

http://hypebeast.com/2009/09/maison-martin-margiela-book/

BYE!

edit:

so so SO excited for Tuesday...

HERE WE GO KIDS

Fashion Week 2009 is milliseconds away from kicking off... ready?!
I'm working Venexiana (again ahhahah) on Friday, Rodarte <3

And in a matter of weeks I'll basically be back on tour with dA bOsS.  Sweet.  But seriously, I can't wait... like 6 shows in three weeks, maybe more, maybe less?  We'll see what happens :)

And I will hopefully be the proud owner of these:

http://www.barneys.com/Frankie%20Creeper/500205544,default,pd.html

very soon as well.  Totally lusting.

PS: If anyone wants to help me put together my desk, cawlllmeeeeeineedhelp.

Hello everyone!

I start third semester tomorrow!  Actually kind of excited too.  Just not happy about the fact that it's draping and I need to get there mad early to fight for a good dress form haha.

Last week, I took an impromptu trip to Mansfield, MA for the second night of Bruce's run at Comcast Center.  It was good, but it would have been better if the pit wasn't oversold, I was aloud to sit in the empty seats, or if there was actual space side stage, but it was good to be back with my cousin for a little bit.  I'm trying to figure out how to manage seeing as many shows as I can this fall.  It's going to be a mess.

I saw the September Issue on Friday / opening night... such a great movie!  I really recommend it, even if you're not "in" to fashion.  

Anyway, school's in tha moRNiN' so I better get to bed.  I went on the longest walk with Maria today so I'm ready to sleep anyway.  So sore.