none of this makes any sense...

if it was what i think it was,

the last time it happened,

i was there to save him.

but i'm leaving it as an accident.

i'm never accepting that it could have been anything else.

constantly frazzled, he grabbed the wrong thing.

end of story.

i'm not beating myself up over it,

there was nothing i could have done.

but it was just 24 hours till i was going to see him again.

this is not fucking real life.

i thought i was supposed to be the famous one, huh?

now you're all over the news haha.

i still owe you a flight to norway!

left my life as fast as you came into it, but changed me more than you'll ever know.

i love you forever and ever.

Wrecking Ball

Night 1, 9/30/09

- Debuted "Wrecking Ball," saw Cindy, performed Born to Run in its entirety.

Night 2, 10/2/09

- Jeremy Piven was there, performed Darkness on the Edge of Town in its entirety, Bruce spotted me while leaving the stage and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

Night 3, 10/3/09

- Took a nap and did math homework instead of going :(

Bruce crowd surfed during "Hungry Heart" and Cindy wore a shirt I made her on stage!

Night 4, 10/8/09

- Performed Born to Run again, Chris Martin, Ed Burns, and Christy Turlington were there.

Night 5, 10/9/09

- Performed Born in the USA, Matt Damon, Tom Colicchio, Chris Martin, and Ed Burns were there.  Bruce came over and we chatted after he finished soundcheck, still callin' me Cuz haha, and he also managed to spot me in the crowd during the show.

Next, Philly, NYC, and Baltimore.  Then... it's.... over... :(

Is there anybody alive out there?

I am not at night 3 of 5 at Giants Stadium for Bruce Springsteen & the E Street Band right now.

I had math homework to do.

Cool.

Night 2 was my favorite so far.

We'll see what the remainder of the tour brings.

I hate letting other people ruin things for me.

Bruce made me come say hi and kissed me on the cheek after coming off stage the other night.

Cool.

Hopefully once I get this art project out of the way, I'll feel better about everything and have the greatest two weeks going back "on tour."