none of this makes any sense...

if it was what i think it was,

the last time it happened,

i was there to save him.

but i'm leaving it as an accident.

i'm never accepting that it could have been anything else.

constantly frazzled, he grabbed the wrong thing.

end of story.

i'm not beating myself up over it,

there was nothing i could have done.

but it was just 24 hours till i was going to see him again.

this is not fucking real life.

i thought i was supposed to be the famous one, huh?

now you're all over the news haha.

i still owe you a flight to norway!

left my life as fast as you came into it, but changed me more than you'll ever know.

i love you forever and ever.